Is God Even Real?

It’s hard to believe in such a big and supernatural God. My mind wanders, questions, and doubts; often if i’m being honest. It’s frustrating. I get mad at myself and at God. Doubt has made me feel ashamed and think I’m not a good enough Christian. 

Below is a post I read on facebook about a year ago that I constantly go back to because for me it makes Christianity and God make a whole lot more sense: 

In a mother’s womb were two babies. One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Why of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what will be later.”

“Nonsense” said the first. “There is no life after delivery. What kind of life would that be?”

The second said, “I don’t know, but there will be more light than here. Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths. Maybe we will have other senses we can’t understand now.”

The first replied, “That is absurd. Walking is impossible. And eating with our mouths? Ridiculous! The umbilical cord supplies nutrition and everything we need. But the umbilical cord is so short. Life after delivery is to be logically excluded.”

The second insisted, “Well i think there is something and maybe it’s different than it is here. Maybe we won’t need this physical cord anymore.”

The first replied, “Nonsense. And moreover if there is life, then why has no one ever come back from there? Delivery is the end of life, and in the after-delivery there is nothing but darkness and silence and oblivion. It takes us nowhere.”

“Well, I don’t know,” said the second, “but certainly we will meet Mother and she will take care of us.”

The first replied “Mother? You actually believe in Mother? That’s laughable. If Mother exists than where is She now?”

The second said, “She is all around us. We are surrounded by her. We are of Her. It is in Her that we live. Without Her this world would not and could not exist.”

Said the first: “Well I don’t see Her, so it is only logical that She doesn’t exist.”

To which the second replied, “Sometimes, when you’re in silence and you focus and listen, you can perceive Her presence, and you can hear Her loving voice, calling down from above.”

I think the reason God is so hard to comprehend is because we don’t have any other big supernatural people walking around Earth that we know, but that doesn’t mean he’s not real. The babies in this story only knew their environment in their mother’s womb. How could they live without their umbilical cord? To them that seemed so impossible, but when in reality they just didn’t understand what was outside of that womb and how soon they would be eating with their mouths instead. They didn’t understand what light was because all they saw was darkness. They didn’t understand how their legs could take them places because they never took a step. They didn’t understand that they had a mother who loved them and cared for them because they never saw her but she was always there surrounding them, caring for them, loving them, and waiting with excitement for the day that they would meet and she would hold them in her arms. I believe on Earth we aren’t able to comprehend these big ideas because we only know and believe what we can see. It’s hard to believe in something so big that we have nothing to compare it to. 

This silly little post on facebook makes so much sense to me and honestly encourages me when my thoughts start to wander to “Is God even real?” “How is He even possible?” It’s okay to not understand, but don’t let that turn into frustration and cause you not to believe in something.  Because there’s things that we sometimes just can’t understand in the moment and it’s not because they aren’t real. It’s because you don’t know what life outside of this Earth looks like. You can’t comprehend how there’s something after life because no one has ever come back from there. But remember no one ever goes back into the womb after they are born. Remember no one ever goes back to being fed from an umbilical cord connected to their mother. Life in heaven and God himself may seem to be logically impossible but I promise you when you take a second to consider this story, to consider this way of thinking, to put everything you think you know to the side; it all becomes possible. Because with God ALL things ARE possible.